November 6, 2003
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How do you feel right now?

Not quite awake enough to start the day.

Jane, 63
West Linn, OR USA

Tired. The daylights saving shift still hasn't got me adjusted yet.

Felicia, 37
Lowell, MA USA

Pretty good. I had a good night's sleep. I have clear tasks to accomplish today. I went to the gym and walked the dogs. The sun is out for the first time in ages. Yep. It's a good day.

Laura, 38
Lowell, MA USA

Pretty good, overall.

Karen, 24
Ames, IA USA

Partly tired but nothing coffee can't handle. Partly obsessed with a new distraction related to artistic efforts.

Alias Irrelevante

Not too bad, as the weekend is about to begin, yet a little nervous, as I have a important meeting before said weekend arrives.

Ryan, 29
Riedlingen GERMANY

Exasperated, but hopeful.

Jill, 61
Saylorsburg, PA USA

had to be that question. right now i feel bored at this moment. at this point in my life i feel frustrated, lazy and bored. there are a lot of things that i should be doing but im not because i dont want to, cant, or am just to lazy to get started on. im tired of school and i have 2 more years to go so there is a lot of lagging going on there. i guess i am irritated with learning right now. or could it be that i am not really learning. i just want to teach dammit. i know everything that i need to teach already. its my calling and i have screwed up so much that its killing me. i
should have been teaching right now. but i had to be lazy and lag around with school. then i got depressed or just lost so i took 2 years off to work out in oakland and a tutor in a high school.

greatest experience because i was doubting myself at that point. it got me back on track but here i am again slowly falling off. family is crazy right now. everybody keeps getting injured, lots of arguing, brothers are doing stupid things that can have horrible consequences, parents are getting old and tired.

i want to protect them from unnecessary stress but its hard. i think family plays too big of a roll in my life so everything else for me including school takes back burner. that messes me up but i deal with it.

i could never move out because that would leave my parents in the hands of my irresponsible seriously spoiled brothers. that i can not do. they are slowly growing up but they arent done yet. soon they will be done then my parents and i can rest.

i am definitely lonely. i have 3 close friends and thats all i will allow right now. one is on her way out but very slowly. the guy friend is the coolest in the world. right now i am hearing from people that he is in love with me but it just cant be.

i dont know if i love him in that way but i guess i could marry him. he isnt my dream guy but he is the right guy. weird. i want to meet "the one" and get it over with. its time to start that part
of my life. i dont want to date. i just want to meet him and get together, get married so i can finally have sex. i am a horny bitch. i cant take this much longer.

im lying. i could end up being an old maid, spinster. i could die a virgin. isnt that nice to look forward to? i just cant be with more than one man. i cant have more than one person knowing my perverse desires and secrets. it just isnt safe for him or me.

im happy that i am alive and well so far. my life, separate from those around me is pretty much drama free. thank god for that one. my niece is the best in the world. she is like a younger twin, a three year old twin to be exact. so we fight and make up every 2 seconds. its the best. i get to teach her so much. but i need to learn more restraint because i am very blunt about everything. she is my true joy.
everything for me is easy if i choose to do it. except getting a job. i
dont know what thats about. well i am lazy about that too. the perfect job was open but i got
scared and talked myself out of it. it would have so great. i figure something else will come along.

so the wrap up. i am frustrated, happy, lonely, lazy, confused, scared, angry, and just plain old human right now. i havent actually had a moment to really think and evaluate myself in
last couple of months. i guess i should get on that.

Ingrid, 22
Stockton, CA USA

Tired - I have to get up at 5:45 to catch my bus into work. It's worth it though because I recently moved to the Gatineau hills outside of Ottawa, one of the most beautiful spots on Earth. But there is only one bus and it comes at 6:30 so I'm an early riser now. Was bringing my car in for a while, but was costing too much in gas and parking so now I relax for an hour on the bus. Makes for a long day though, so the answer to the question is I am feeling a bit slow - it's only 7:45 am and I haven't had my second coffee yet. :)

Paul
Kent ENGLAND

Ill and tired - I have a stinking headcold, and my poo-head boyfriend decided to wake me up at 5 in the morning. So yep - I'm going to have a good old moan, then go back to bed :)

Alice
Cardiff UK

I'm a little tired. It's been a long day. I'm glad to be home.

Cathie, 53
Novi, MI USA

Tired. Glad that it is Friday. Looking forward to a football game tonight and anticipating a day of solitude and house-cleaning tomorrow as my husband heads to the woods for the opening day
of black powder hunting.

Cindy, 41
VA USA

Exhausted. I haven't had much sleep this week but I've had early starts every day, so this weekend I intend to rest up a bit.

Aly, 17
Cardiff UK

sleepy

Melodi, 19
Gahanna, OH USA

I feel okay right now.

Fisch, 47
Preston, CT USA

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